Amanda is feeling fat as.

I dunno what's going on.Just a year ago I was in full control of my diet and all of a sudden it seemed like I totally lost control. I've been trying and TRYING to exercise self control over what I eat but it just doesn't EVER seem to work anymore. WTF.

FARRR OUT

I just feel soooo screwed up. Like why is everything so hard? I don't even feel good abt myself anymore. I rmb the feeling of being able to show your thighs without worrying abt the fat on it,but now..?

And I can't help the fact that food just tastes endlessly heaven. When I see the food, my mouth goes..screw the body.



Mehh maybe all this is getting to me because it's been dragging on for almost a year now. The whole continuous upscale on my weight, and this holidays which I was hoping would be more exercise and less food. But it turned out to be an OVERLOAD of sugar and almost zero exercise.
I neeeeeeeeeeed to stop UHHHHHHHHHHHH!


fuck