O.O MY HAPPY 200th POST!!!
Lol only 200 after so many years..Ahh well

I haven't really been up to much besides all the stuffff.
But yeah last week and this week's sudden wave of heat during spring time sure got to me. I like to think of it as the heat and flies that's been spoiling my mood everyday. I dunno what else,really. Esp last week, uhhh I was so negatively wired in my head. Felt sick of this, cbf doing that. Hate this,hate that. Ughhh ughhh uhghhh.

Also,kept questioning myself.
Self doubts.
like can't play the piano gd enough for shit.
that im such a bitch sometimes,i know.
that drifting relationship with God.
blah bleee blah blahh.
jealousy in some areas don't help either.
sigh..

in a state of loss? I can only not think too much.